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I beat myself a wound
that adorns my body
I sprinkle it softly with salt
to make it more beautiful
I let myself to the vein
and open the skin gently
I enjoy the kiss of the blade
that makes me into a man
I hang myself on thin wires
I asked myself to do it
I feel sorry for myself so sorry*
I feel sorry for myself so sorry
I am not afraid of the bogeyman
Because I can do away with myself on my own
I must
I must hurt myself again
I feel sorry for myself so sorry
I must hurt myself again
because only the pain heals me
I love my scar
in all its splendor
A nice souvenir
I made it myself
I bite my tongue
and suffer in silence
I draw the old knife
through my skin once more
But when I see myself in the mirror
my little heart hurts so badly
There is still room on my skin
I will do again that which I dread
I must
I must hurt myself again
I feel sorry for myself so sorry
I must hurt myself again
because the pain is all that's left for me
I must
I must hurt myself again
I feel so sorry for myself
I must
I must hurt myself again
I harm myself
I must hurt myself again
because the pain is all that's left for me
*This single translation doesn't quite capture the intended meaning of the line. "(Es) tut mir leid" is the German expression for "I'm sorry"; the closest literal translation which retains this meaning is "It does me sorrow," but "leid" can also translate as "pain," depending on the context. This double meaning is used here, so the line "Ich tu mir leid" simultaneously means "I'm feeling sorry for myself" and "I'm hurting myself."
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