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Off the top of the head
Kick ya in ya neck
Damn, at times it's like my mind's at odds with itself
And it's so hard to find common ground
Damned if I do, damned if I don't
Still no time to think how many times
Does my flesh test my soul
Whole, they are not torn apart
My yin and yang sendin' brang
Chaotic waves to my thoughts
And I wanna get drunk but I want my health
And I'd like her in my life but we don't seem to connect
And I'll probably feel different tomorrow than I did today
Dependin' on events that follow
The moment at hand, components expand in my consciousness
But always find myself back where I began
At odds with these mixed feelings
So I take my time and write these rhymes
And lo and behold it unfolds but I'm still behind
Two months on my rent so is my spirit uplifts
My pockets is just as holy
And it gets cold in these necks of the woods
So I need heat but I need beats so my soul can eat
And find a proper way to balance all of these
Damn
Mixed feelings
All of these mixed feelings
Damn
Maybe one day I'll come to grips with all of these emotions
But now my brain's like a microchip
That's been broke down and torn apart
I don't really understand why I gots to feel
So angry, dang, if we get it all together
We'll be hangin' and everyone will be feelin' clever
But now I'll be biddin' you farewell
There's tales that need to be told
And stories that need to be unfolded
So let's get ready
Reachin' out to all massive and crew
Mixed feelings
Mixed up emotional
Rollercoaster ride kicks it to you all so's you know
I can't find an antidote or a potion though
To this life I've been known to be devotional
Don't you know I
And where you gonna go
And where you gonna hide
There's nowhere you can run to 'cause it's all inside
You either stand on the edge or you take a dive
I block it all out while time passes by
Put 'em in the kettle and you stir 'em all around
Upside down, a smile's nothin' but a frown
Troubling, bubbling thoughts come crumbling down
Like the walls of Jericho
Sick of arguin' with myself all day
They say just go with what feels best
So I'ma put it in Jah's hands and let it manifest itself
And if I'm wrong, eff it
I gave it my best effort
I coulda just left it
Rejected it and neglected and accepted it
For what it was
I need a buzz
My head's reelin'
From copin' and dealin' with all of these mixed feelings
Damn
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